Gray & Mustard

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Roller Coaster

So.....
Please don't hate me. It's been so long. I've missed you! I've really missed writing. OK, moving on.

So, this is my 94th post, which means I have a 100th post coming up very soon and I'm thinking giveaway - a great giveaway! What do you think? My last one, while I had one participation, was pretty small! Will you help me spread the word this time? I'll come up with something really great and let you know so you can get super excited!

This week has been a rough one at work. I know, I know... Again?!? But it's making me think twice about the why. Why do I always seem to be in a high-low pattern with my job? Why do certain people rattle me so? My natural reaction to these factors is, I need a new job. But after applying to countless places for countless different positions over the last year that I've held my current job (always as a knee-jerk reaction to a bad day/week), it's pretty clear that this whole economy thing is no joke. Of probably close to 100 applications, I've received ZERO response. Pretty discouraging, but it's also brought home the point that I DO have a job and I should be grateful for it. And I am. So, my next question is this - if I've learned that much, what else are my feelings about the whole work situation trying to teach me? My mother has told me many a time that a lot of things in life get to me so much because of my age and inexperience. I know this to be true but it doesn't change the fact that I still feel how I feel. I guess I have to just come to grips with the fact that I just have to chill out sometimes and not let things get to me like I do. Whatever. Easier said than done. I try and I'm going to keep trying. Trust me, the stress of it all is not good for my health. I've felt sick most of today and yesterday! So, I'm going to make a concerted effort to take a step back sometimes and just breathe. We'll see how it goes. And as always, I'll keep you posted!

Speaking of keeping you posted - I'm still going to be auditioning for The Voice three weeks from this Saturday. I'm getting really excited, too. I still need a hotel, but they haven't posted exactly where the auditions are going to be held! The line starts at 7:00 AM. Auditions are on a first come, first served basis and not everybody will get to audition. While I want to be able to audition, I am not the type to wait in long lines overnight. So I'd like to get a better picture of what part of Atlanta it's in so I can get a hotel close by! Problem solved. Oh well, maybe they'll post it soon. In the meantime, any ideas of songs to sing for the audition?

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Celebration Weekend

We got to spend the weekend celebrating the marriage a dear friend. This is the first wedding of a really close friend that I've attended - so emotional! I absolutely love weddings. I also think that anyone who says otherwise is completely lying or delusional. To me, there's nothing happier. I also love the rehearsal dinner. It gives you a deeper insight into the couple - how much people love them, crazy things they've done over the years (which they would probably never want anyone to know!) and how much they love each other. In short, Abbie and Gray, your wedding was stunningly beautiful, you are both so incredibly loved and blessed and with all that love surrounding you as you begin your lives together, I know that nothing but a long life of happiness and love can await you. I love you guys!

Tomorrow is the 4th of July - one of my personal favorite holidays. America the great. America the beautiful. I'm pretty sure that most of my readers already know how I feel about America and how most people who don't appreciate where we live can really grate on my nerves. We take so many luxuries for granted. Most of us can't even come close to understanding just how good we have it.

I recently purchased a really beautiful book called 6 Billion Others: Portraits of Humanity from Around the World.

It profiles people from all over the world and asks questions about hopes, dreams, background, career, family, etc. Some people have several pages, but the section of the book I like the best is in between those sections. Several people from far and wide are asked to respond to the same question. The answers are short and sweet, but this is the part of the book that quickly allows you to see how different life is in different parts of the world. While reading responses to the question: What was your worst day?, it hit me. (I'll generalize by saying 'we', but believe me when I say that I'm speaking from my personal experience) We get so caught up in ourselves and our 'problems' that we completely lose sight of people who have real problems all over the world - every day. Civil wars, rape, disease, famine, discrimination, marginalization. Please never mistake me when I speak about America. I know that we are not perfect - we have our problems just like every other nation in the world. And yes, some of those things do still take place in our country, but I am still truly of the belief that in America, the general population is empowered and at liberty to fight for things that they believe in. We are all still encouraged to make our positive mark on the world - to make things better. This is something that does not happen often in other parts of the world. The general theme seems to be - don't make waves, don't question - things have been done this way up until now, why change them? Americans don't settle for this mentality. We are bred to question, to think for ourselves. That is why we are innovators. I hope we never stop.

Being of an age group where it's trendy to begin to question authority/government, where rocking the boat is often done simply to rock the boat and where people tend to be anti-everything, I say one thing. Happy birthday, America!!! We've got a long way to go, but we've also come so far.